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PERSONAL STORIES |
I was 13 when I first slept with a boy, and so were most of my mates. I'm 15 now. There's only one friend I've got who's still a virgin, and she's saving herself for when she falls in love. I wish I had. I didn't enjoy having sex for the first time at all.
The main reasons? Well, to start off with I didn't love him. He was a friend of one of the lads at school and I thought it was pretty uncool to still be a virgin when some of my mates had already slept with lads - well, had sex with them cos they didn't actually go to bed!
So I wanted to do it and 'get it over with', and I suppose now when I think about it I wish I had waited.
I went to the park with a group of mates from school, and some lads from another school. and we all got really pissed on cider, and he was all over me so I knew he wanted to do it. We left the group - I could hardly stand up I was that drunk, and we went into the bushes. It was awful. I felt really sick and dirty. Me and my friends laughed about it later, although I was really scared I might be pregnant.
I realised I didn't know anything about my body or my periods,and afterwards he never spoke to me. Him and his mates just laughed every time we saw them which was really horrible. I hate him, and hate myself for doing it with somebody I didn't even like. I felt cheap.
I kept thinking about how he treated me - like shit, and that really upset me cos it's all about self-respect, and those lads don't respect us now.
But now if any of my sisters younger friends talk about sex I tell them to wait until they are really sure they like that person a lot. I hope they'll really think about that cos the first time is really special, and I'll never have that chance again. |
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I decided to wait to have sex even though all my friends had been sleeping with boys - some from the age of 11 and 12.
They didn't think about it in terms of breaking the law - and I've never seen it like that either. I mean it's my body so why shouldn't I be able to choose what I do with it, but it just so happens that I have decided to wait until I meet someone I really care about.
I've got friends at school who are Moslem, and it's part of their culture to wait until they are married to have sex. I really envy them, and I think that they are a lot happier because of that, or at least that's how it seems to me.
A lot of my friends say I was lucky to wait, but it's not really luck, it's what I think is right for me, and I'm not afraid to say that. I think a lot of girls are a bit scared of what their mates think, or they get pushed into it by their boyfriends and then the boys dump them.
I don't want that to happen to me.
I want it to be perfect! Ok, it might not be perfect and I am a bit worried about, well what if I don't meet anyone I like! But basically I want it to be right for me, and if it is, then it won't be wrong. |
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